Goodbye MS

Thursday, 28.02.2019

So, short information in advance: the Chemo starts tomorrow, 01.03.2019.

Yesterday, enough stem cells could be fished – they now wait well in the ice age. Today I am so tired, that is incredible. I suspect that this is related to the treatment yesterday.

At noon today, as every day, a nurse came in for a quick hygienic wipe. I barely got my eyes open in greeting. She waved directly: “Sleep Katyusha, sleep, sleep!” – You are all so cute to me here. Really nice. I slept sooo much, like some kind of living stone – unbelievable how tired you can be. In between, I thought someone would come to my room. I wanted to open my eyes to see who it was – but the eyelids were too heavy. I heard then how the person uses my toilet … so that seemed a bit strange to me. So I blinked with Ach and noise …. dear ones, there was nobody. Nobody! I had such similar moments twice today. Insane.

Also, I feel like a mix of Neo from Matrix and Bob Marley with my cable salad on my neck …

If I sit down on the cair, then I stay awake. But as soon as only one toe touches my bed, I drift away 🙄😂

Otherwise I’m fine. This morning they have cleaned my new ZVK again (🔥🔥🔥❗)! That was good! Nice, when the pain subsides, oh weia!

Dear Ones….

Tomorrow it starts … tomorrow my sick immune system will be destroyed. I do not want to banish it. Basically, my body just wanted to protect me. My immune cells thought my brain and my nerves were something sick to destroy. That’s a malfunction, not less. So I actually thanked my immune system for the effort. But I also explained that it has to leave my body now because it just does not do the “right” job – and I do not think my immune system wants to do a wrong job with such zeal! So. So tomorrow it will be adopted, destroyed, destroyed or as I call it currently: “transformed” – because we live in the universe. And somehow it will find its right job somewhere in some way that is still inconceivable to us humans. But not for MS and not for me !!

So tomorrow is Chemo announced. Fight the MS !! Probably for 4 days.